I followed her to a quiet location, and that's where things went completely pear-shaped. My assignment was being ended, she was very sorry for it, and I was to clean out my personal belongings and hightail it out of there as quietly as possible. I didn't ask a lot of questions. I sent a quiet email to the coworkers I feel I've grown closer to, and packed my desk. A few people noticed, but no big deal, everything went smoothly and quietly.
I've spent my weekend wondering how I should feel about this. Should I be upset? Should I be angry? Should I be depressed? It's a wonder to me that I'm able to be calm right now, considering I lost my source of steady income. I have a car payment that I don't know how I'm going to pay, and insurance and a phone along with that. Not to mention that whole, y'know, RENT thing.
I've realized that there is no correct response. I choose to take this as an opportunity - I can focus on my jewelry now. I can take advantage of natural light and get those stunning photos I really want, the ones that will truly sell my jewelry. I can spend the day snuggled with my cat on the couch, creating and designing.
I know, in my heart of hearts, that though I talked about saving money and building stuff up, that by the time I felt financially ready to leave the Day Job and devote myself to the jewelry full-time, I would have lost the passion to do this. Sometimes, I guess, Life just gives us that little shove we're not willing to give ourselves.
Anyway. So I took some pictures, with the gorgeous sunlight, and here are the results!
|Blue and white glass hearts and boxes|
|Pretty pretty pearly danglies.|